Kenapa perasaan yang paling susah untuk difahami..?

Baru-baru ni aku ade borak dengan kazen aku. As usual, ade la terselit pasal “status update”..haha. so satu demi satu citer keluar... Hhmmm..conclusion dari citer-citer ni ialah perempuan ni suka sangat simpan perasaan pada diri sendiri & in the end bile dah terlambat nak frust tak tentu hala. Essentially, dalam borak-borak tu I was pretty engrossed over ‘something’ that made me contemplated (for quite sometime....hhmmm??), relating, rationalizing and smile. Why? Because it was coming from a guy! And the best part is, I think I should share that ‘something’ here…;D

“mcm mane kite nak tau kite sayang or cinta pada orang tu…”

“kite tau kite sayang kat orang tu bile kite rasa selesa bile dia ade dengan kite. Tapi kita cinta pada orang tu bile kita start rasa gelisah/restless/serabut/jalan mundar mandir/buat benda semua tak betul/asyik glance kat fon jer/mata jadi juling jap/eh macam-macam lagi la bile orang tu tak ada bersama kiter”.

“owh…ok. Abis how do we know the guy is having the same feeling towards us?”

“guys wont know if gurls don’t tell us. kalau dah dua2 pun tak bagitau, behaving like two egoistic wanted-to-be-in-loved-badly humans & somehow expecting that the other person would open his/her mouth first, sampai bile-bile pun tak kan tau. Even though our mentality are literally different than gurls, but we still breath like girls breath, we blink our eyes just like gurls do and the person that always lingering in our mind is the person that we miss the most at that point of time.

Isn’t that what we do too gurls? Haha…..bingo!

TAPI perempuan….. semestinya ada terselit kemas sifat-sifat ke'konservatif'annya & pemalunya walau macam mane modern dan hu-ha nyer dia. Orang nak kater kuno pun kuno la.. Bagi perempuan, itu kan tugas kaum adam when it comes to having the guts to confess about their feelings for the gurl. Tapi berbaloi ke mengorbankan perasaan sendiri tanpa berusaha mencuba semata-mata kerana malu atau tak nak dianggap “melanggar” tradisi timba mencari perigi atau mungkin juga kerana ego yang tak disedari…?

Tak ke tindakan ni dianggap bodoh atau dungu atau tolol? The answer is YES, by a certain people. Memang logic pun! Alrite, positively thinking u might have your happiness that gonna lies widely ahead of u, with condition u’re brave enuff to try your luck. Especially when there are chances & opportunities for u to do it. Of course it will be such a heartbreaking when he turns u down, BUT at least u’ve tried and that is the most important part. By some means, kite akan rase puas hati walaupun mission tidak berjaya.

Ye kerr? Tapi kiter kan perempuan…..??!!??!!! eergghh, back to square one dowh!